just randomly thought of the first day we hung out, when i smoked with you i got soosooooo awkward. and even though we previously talked about cuddling while watching planet earth, i didnt know how to go about it. i asked if you’d play with my hair, and the second i put my head on your lap and you touched my hair, i somehow knew that i was going to fall hard and quick for you.sure enough i did. and all i want now is to be able to see you. i hope that once you’re done recording, things will somewhat go back to the way it was :/ hurts seeing you once a week. but now that im still unsure of where we stand, idk if i will get to see you anytime soon. no matter what im doing my mind goes back to you
Uncle Freddy
we are all missing you like crazy i hope you know. especially my mom. but im glad i got to tell you i love you the day before you passed away <3 i was scared i wouldn’t have been strong enough to cope but i know how much pain you were in and i guess you’re better off.. my mom said in the middle of the night it felt like someone was tapping her to wake her up, that’s when she checked on you and realized you had gotten worse in the middle of the night (we’d like to think it was nana telling her “go check on your brother”). you are by far the coolest uncle. vaeh walked into your bedroom the other day lauren was saying, she asked “wheres uncle fweddy and his bed?” i dont know what lauren told her. but i do know vaeh will miss you like crazyyyy. she always loved when you’d stop in to say hi, or take her to jackie’s for the night
ps. i wish i could have smoked your last blunt with you!! i was so disappointed when my mom told me you all smoked in the room :/ ill miss the shit out of you uncle fred, you were still young <3333
my nerves will be the death of me
and he doesnt even know the amount of times he’s made me cry.
